PSA and such

[beandelphiki]

My userinfo tells me I updated last 5 days ago. Whoa.

Okay.

First and foremost, I have not been on lj much lately - I'm feeling kinda burned out. And the Tiger thing was hard. (I still don't think I've really grieved to the point it's "out" of me - meaning, I haven't grieved at all. I'm wondering if I will, and what will happen with me mentally if I don't. Eh. So...)

So I didn't thank everyone for their very kind comments on that at the time. I regret that, it was terribly rude. But I want to thank everyone who commented to me during those few days now. It was deeply appreciated.

Second, after tonight I lose the internet. My family is moving half-way across the city, and well, we're taking the computer, too. So it needs to be disconnected. I'll actually be without my home comp until the end of Friday. That's like, 3 days. I've never...you know...been away from a computer that long. Okay, well, I have but... Weird.

So I won't be on lj. Um, yeah. That's a switch.

Thirdly, griffen made a post today about fears, and invited people on his friends list to state what they're afraid of. I decided to do it here, so if anyone wants to join in over here, go for it. I wanna know what you're afraid of.


What I Am Afraid Of

1. Number one biggest phobia - leeches. I got one on me once, and for various reasons, it was incredibly traumatic.

2. Worms, slugs, snails, bugs with more than eight legs. Anything that even vaguely seems worm or caterpillar-like. This is related to the leech phobia.

3. Wasps and bees. Getting stung hurts like a bitch. I only had it happen to me once, but childhood pain you remember as so much worse than adult pain.

4. Okay, no more bugs. I'm afraid of eating with my back to a room, or sleeping with a window open.

5. Wait, one more bug thing. I'm scared of having things crawl on me in the night.

6. I'm a little wary around dogs. Got sort of attacked once, my dad let it happen. He thought it was funny. Long story.

7. Sex.

8. Criticism.

9. Praise.

10. I'm afraid I won't do what I was meant to do on this earth before I die. I'm especially afraid because I feel I'll die young, and I don't have much time.

11. Public humiliation. BIG one.

12. I have a lot of fears wrapped up with transition that are hard to articulate.

13. Losing face. Edit: I would include Griff's "people laughing at me" and "making mistakes" in here.

14. Ummm....I know there's more. But they're not coming to me. Either they're too vague, or they're not big ones.

It occurs to me that I have to find EVERYTHING that I signed up for with my primary email and switch them once this move is over, because we can't stay with the same ISP. *sigh*

Have to go to class now.

Comments

[groovycat.livejournal.com]

i fear:
-- needles, but only the kinds doctors use. sewing, piercing, etc needles are fine.
-- bees/wasps and big spiders.
-- strange noises at night.
-- my house's living room.
-- being stabbed in the back. with a knife.
-- stating my opinions when i know i'm the only one in the room who agrees.

[beandelphiki.livejournal.com]

Oh, yes, the last one is a doozy.

And I realize I forgot a big one - ghosts! I'm terrified. :P

[benthecube.livejournal.com]

I fear:

1. Dogs that seem friendly and then scare the bejesus out of you by barking at a strange moment.
2. Rejection.
3. Being strangled by my own clothing whilst sleeping.
4. Dentists.
5. Men who yell.
6. Walking the streets at night (or someone I feel strongly for walking the streets at night).
7. Sleeping near a window in an unfamiliar house (it's a combined burglary/lightning thing).
8. The future.
9. White-tailed spiders (a common yet deadly spider that's common down here).

[benthecube.livejournal.com]

a common yet deadly spider that's common down here

*Sigh* Don't mind me.

fear what fear

[lytheris.livejournal.com]

1. Any and all bugs (but am proud to say that i'm overcoming this phoiba have killed 2 spiders with my bare hands in the past month *grins with pride)
2. Bugs crawling into my ears (had a fly do this once not pleasnt)
3. Wasps or bee's stinging my eyes
4. Finding a dead kid floating in my pool (seen this (well he was unconsious and not breathing and it wasn't my pool, not pretty)
5. things constricting my neck give me the feeling i'm being chocked
6. Being Raped
7.That people may veiw me as inefectual, stupid, or mentally challanged
8. That I might offened someone unintentionally and then not know about it
9. That i'm actually stupid
10. That my life will be an utter and complete waste
11. That by negligence i may kill someone
(i'll stop now)

[abalorn.livejournal.com]

1- suffocation, i think its onea the reasons i hate swimming in public pools where theres lots of people, its so easy to be knocked under the water in messing around and such

2- being helpless to help someone
3- loneliness