Yeah, fuck you too
Mar. 20th, 2003 04:01 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beandelphikiI'm so...mad.
Gah...David spent the entire drafting class poking me. Which was not so bad until we went to lunch and out of the blue, he told me that I'm straight, his ass. After weeks where he's seemingly accepted that I have a boyfriend but don't like guys...he suddenly tells me that if I'm straight, he's the Canadian Idol.
After that, everything he said or did today got on my nerves. And he was trying to, too. So I'm REALLY pissed.
The whole fucking world just better steer clear of me today.
Just leave...me...ALONE.
Grrrrrrrrr.
Gah...David spent the entire drafting class poking me. Which was not so bad until we went to lunch and out of the blue, he told me that I'm straight, his ass. After weeks where he's seemingly accepted that I have a boyfriend but don't like guys...he suddenly tells me that if I'm straight, he's the Canadian Idol.
After that, everything he said or did today got on my nerves. And he was trying to, too. So I'm REALLY pissed.
The whole fucking world just better steer clear of me today.
Just leave...me...ALONE.
Grrrrrrrrr.
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(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 07:05 am (UTC)I doubt he can remember my username. Also, he's extremely down on lj. Says it's a stupid idea. (He seemed more interested before he discovered that *cough*some people*cough* will find *cough*older boyfriends*cough* on lj, which is just WRONG in his opinion. He also thinks the concept of a diary that is public is pretty stupid.)
*runs off again*
*smooches you as he runs past*
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 09:06 am (UTC)< /wry >
sorry.. I know I'm insanely jealous, even though I'm not supposed to be.
oh f. that reminds me. I forgot to take my meds again. :P
*goes to take to try to head off the impending nervous breakdown*
(it's only WRONG in his opinion because it semi reduces his chances to get with you)
I hope all this doesn't bug you... I wouldn't say it if I thought it would.. it's just my honest, considered opinion.
*smooches you as you go by and accidentally gets lip scraped by your teeth*
ow!
...
mmm...
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 03:48 pm (UTC)And he doesn't think they're passe, he just thinks they're stupid. He's never once looked at my journal long enough to get my username - hell I've tried to SHOW him my journal, and he's havin' none of it.
We were having this funny convo today - I asked him to give me a good reason he's not into me to give to you to convince you. He thought it was super funny we're having a "piffle" over it and gave his reasons thusly:
1. Because if he wanted me, he would have had me already.
[I told him this was a completely inadequate reason, so he said]
2. Because he's too busy going after Joe, Pat (
[Which I decided was good enough. For me, anyway. And certainly, as he doesn't think I'm straight anymore, that makes me much less attractive.]
There you go. *pats*
(Hope your meds helped.)
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Date: 2003-03-22 06:06 pm (UTC)ok.. I'm going to let this one go... just because.. um.. well...
I don't think I can convince you.
but just so you know..
um.. neither haleth nor I think either of the 2 arguments are in the slightest bit swaying... if anything they still point towards you a little bit.
Hehh.. but I'm feeling more ok about this... so no worries. Um... and I promise I won't say I told you so if he eventually does.
well.. I'll try not to, anyway.
*grapples you and liplocks you*
mmmm...
*happily tastes your braces*
;)
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 06:35 pm (UTC)...
BOTH of them?
...
You're both warped.
And wrong.
*crosses arms defiantly*
Re:
Date: 2003-03-22 06:36 pm (UTC):)
and we never said we weren't!! ;)
muahahaha
um..
*snogs*
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 06:45 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2003-03-22 06:47 pm (UTC)that's ok.
*snogs*
maybe I prefer it if you don't. ;)
*lick*
*purrr*
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 06:48 pm (UTC)I'll try to explain...
right after I practice singing Danny Boy again..
(I can never remember all the words!!)
*smooch*
*love*
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 06:54 pm (UTC)Oh...and:
DON'T SING THAT F*CKING SONG AROUND ME!!!
That's what EVERYONE sings when they see me and I HATE it now. Grr.
*sighs*
*drafts*
*hugs*
Re:
Date: 2003-03-22 06:55 pm (UTC)*pouts*
but... it's always been my favorite song!
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 07:08 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2003-03-22 07:10 pm (UTC)(esp if David is in the lab with you)
hehe...
I'm about 1/3 of the way through...
*smooches you*
*pulls on your pants*
Re:
Date: 2003-03-22 06:56 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 07:09 pm (UTC)(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 07:30 pm (UTC)*hugs*
sorry, I'm probably not helping...
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 07:24 pm (UTC)Point the first:
1. Because if he wanted me, he would have had me already.
This is a joke, and surely was intended as such. Even so, it is indicative of narcissism. If it was not a joke, then this person is, frankly, kinda scary. I'd almost prefer that it wasn't a joke, because people that really think like this um... very rarely have any success in the realm of intimacy due to severe debilitating shallowness.
Nonetheless... even as a joke... it is intended to be rather seductive... implanting almost subliminally the thought that "he would have had me..." and evoking subliminal sexual imagery and sensory/tactile suggestions of the 2 of you together. So... it's supposed to make you "see" the 2 of you together, and "feel" the 2 of you together. This attempts to break down barriers between the 2 of you sexually...
Further... it attempts a reversal at the "sexual rejection" schema between the 2 of you... saying, "I don't want you, anyway..." and making him the one who rejects you rather than vice versa. This has the psychological effect of creating a sense of loss in another person, such that they might think, "well... I guess I almost had him..." and thereby creating a sense of need for him.
Finally... it sets up the dynamic of "wanting the unattainable..." but reverses it, again, back on to him. Where it might originally have seemed like he was wanting the unattainable you, now it tries to set him up as the unattainable (and therefore psychologically perfect) person... again attempting to evoke psychological yearnings that run deep within us all.
*sigh*
Point the second:
2. Because he's too busy going after Joe, Pat ( [userinfo] abalorn, Danny and the other [*cough*straight*cough*] guys in the school to bother with me.
hmm.. this is actually very similar in the dynamic of "sour grapes..." in that he tries to lessen your perceived desirability in order to instill a sense of fear in you that you aren't even as attractive as these other people, and are not attractive enough to bother with. So... you're supposed to be left to feel that you've lost an opportunity to have him, because he's, like "sooo over you now." This is intended to make you question your original decision to decline his advances and to leave you feeling somewhat abandoned by him.
*sigh*
Haleth isn't here, or I'd have her go over this and see if she agrees.
Now please note that I am an overanalyzer, and that I tend to overreact to things.
My "gut" reaction is that he is not currently trying to get you, but that he wouldn't mind if he could. He seems to have a sense of humor and to be rather playful, and I'm sure this is mostly what he intended by these statements. But... the underlying things are things that I'm sure he hasn't, himself, even thought of... but they "point" to some of his underlying thinking... which is why both Ann Marie and I picked up on it so easily.
I'm sure that it's harder for you because there is like a "double denial" going on... where you would much rather believe that he isn't after you, and he would rather not feel that he was still after you, too... for comfort's sake. So... no I'm not saying that it is malicious or anything, or that he's trying to be sneaky... it's just... something that is running in the back of his head... keeping options open and always... trying.
Um.. I hope this doesn't piss you off.
*hugs*
*love*
me
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 07:42 pm (UTC)Hahahahahahahah, that was GREAT! *giggles madly in the corner*
Okay...sorry. I'm not laughing at you or anything. I just thought this whole in-depth anylsis of his jokes was super funny. (I'm sure there's probably a way you could have said it without the psychobabble too, but hey. Like I said. Funny.)
He says that kind of shit all the time, and I'll tell you that it has way more to do with HIM than it does me. He thinks he's ugly, see. So he's always making these narcissistic remarks, but that's a cover.
hmm.. this is actually very similar in the dynamic of "sour grapes..." in that he tries to lessen your perceived desirability in order to instill a sense of fear in you that you aren't even as attractive as these other people, and are not attractive enough to bother with.
...Which might work except that I know I AM less attractive than Danny or Joe or Pat, and I am sooooo over that. Worrying over that is like, sooooo 11th grade. *snort*
My "gut" reaction is that he is not currently trying to get you, but that he wouldn't mind if he could.
Well, I could have told you THAT. After all, I'm male. :P
Just so we're clear on this.
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Date: 2003-03-22 07:51 pm (UTC)ok... it was fairly tongue in cheek.. but I didn't know if it came off that way.. esp with the psychobabble which I find very funny, too. ;)
Oh... and I'm sure you're sooooo not less attractive than those people. Send me a pic and I'll prove it to ya!
Well, I could have told you THAT. After all, I'm male. :P
ok.. heee!
*smooches you madly*
*has purchased used cleats on eBay*
(just fair warning)
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 07:57 pm (UTC)What are you going to DO with them? Honestly. :P
Post pics of who, Joe? Just go to any site that has pics of Leo DiCaprio. Like that, but his face is wider. :P
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Date: 2003-03-22 07:58 pm (UTC)oh Leo? yuk!
*holds nose*
*browses for shinguards*
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 08:02 pm (UTC)You don't like Leo?
Re:
Date: 2003-03-22 08:04 pm (UTC)It says large is for anyone taller than 5'6 or something
um.. no not really...
do you?
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 08:08 pm (UTC)Um, of course not. But you don't?
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 08:14 pm (UTC)no offense to him, of course..
I tried to look in the keeper's place... but...
he was so... um... attentive...
I felt I had to leave.
*hugs*
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 08:16 pm (UTC)*blinks* Me not unnerstand... unattentive? So you had to leave?
Re:
Date: 2003-03-22 08:30 pm (UTC)sorry!!!
*hugs*
Um... no he was talking to me too much and looking at me too much... so I felt anxious, even though he was very kind and nice... but still... I had to get out of there...
Welcome to my world ;)
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 08:26 pm (UTC)'Bye. *hugs*
Re:
Date: 2003-03-22 08:28 pm (UTC)Love You!!!!
*mad smooches*
*misses you*
*telephone in hand*
(no subject)
Date: 2003-03-22 08:10 pm (UTC);)
Re:
Date: 2003-03-22 08:11 pm (UTC)was kinda serious
I mean.. I still believe that my interpretation is valid.
*folds arms*
;)