Aargh!

[beandelphiki]

So I have almost finished setting up movie night with David, although there are some details to be worked out.

Three days away, and I'm already regretting this decision. Don't I ALWAYS regret it when some Gryffindorish impulse hits me? Ugh.

I'm going to be spending four hours or more in his presence, and HE HATES ME! Okay, well, maybe he doesn't hate me, but I'm sure he thinks I'm annoying. Everybody does. I'm not a hatable person, I don't think, I just get on EVERYBODY'S nerves.

One stupid movie that he's DESPERATE to see, and he acts like he's going to watch a naked wrestling match between Martha Stewart and Oprah while tethered to Jabba the Hut.

I can see the whole evening now:

- My mom will pick David and I up at school. The Rumour Mill goes berserk.

- We'll sit in stiff silence through the car ride with my mom occasionally saying, "Boy, you guys are quiet."

- When Nicole speaks to us, she refers to me by female pronouns. Mom clucks at her. Nicole makes a sound of disgust, tosses her head and glares out the window. David looks very disturbed.

- When we get to the theatre, Mom will shoo David off with me. David will faint in horror. No, not really, but JUST then I will have to run off, obsessive-compulsively, to the bathroom. I'll come back 10 minutes before the movie starts and jiggle in place and hope I don't have to pee again. David will think I'm nutters.

- He'll hate the movie.

- Negotiation over whether he goes home or stays for supper. He stays, hates the food, and gets told by my mother, in graphic detail, what a mess my room is.

- We drive him home. He's embarrassed by the whole affair, and avoids me for the rest of second semester.

THERE'S A REASON I'M A LONER! THERE'S A REASON I HAVE NO CLOSE FRIENDS!

I SUCK at this "friend" business, that's why. I could have stayed home Tuesday afternoon and eaten copious amounts of chocolate pudding while listening to showtunes.

*sulk*

Comments

[siegeengine.livejournal.com]

Oh, now you stop! :)
It will be great. You just have to keep a positive attitude.
That kind of stuff helps, really, even though it sounds like crap.

You're going to have a great time, and if nothing else, he'll love the movie.

(but OMG your scenario cracked me up! :)
*hugs*

Dude

[haleth.livejournal.com]

This is like, totally weird that you can post from work now. LOL. Fancy meeting you here!

[beandelphiki.livejournal.com]

You people just don't understand. Except for him hating the movie, or avoiding me all semester long, that scenario is COMPLETELY fact-based. That is EXACTLY how I and my family act. (I am guessing about his reactions, though.)

[siegeengine.livejournal.com]

That may be true...
but don't you see you've already scripted your own reactions to the events.
You've decided that it will be terrible, and that you'll be embarrassed and upset by everything.

If all goes as you planned it, David will pick up on your vibes and he will, indeed, be embarrassed and upset by what you say will happen, and he'll be terribly uncomfortable. The only thing in the world we can really control are our behaviors and our reactions to what happens to us. I think if you are terribly amused or take things in stride... then he'll be amused and take things in stride.

Just a little food for thought.

*laughs a little at your description of how it will go*

[haleth.livejournal.com]

I really think it won't be that bad! But I always project the worst myself, so I'll be prepared just in case.

but I'm sure he thinks I'm annoying. Everybody does. I'm not a hatable person, I don't think, I just get on EVERYBODY'S nerves.

The only people I know who really do get on everyone's nerves are the ones who don't think they're annoying. So, you're safe there!

I SUCK at this "friend" business

You don't, at least online you don't. Those friendship skills may or may not transfer to RL. They do for me, a little bit. Um. *hugs* I hope you have a good time, in spite of everything. You're going to see CoS, I think? At least you'll be able to enjoy some Harry/Draco love subtext *cringes* even though Draco is really creepy and Ron is way cute! Pick Ron, Harry! Ron! The redhead! Over there!

Heh. I'll just be going now...

Re: *laughs a little at your description of how it will go*

[beandelphiki.livejournal.com]

You're going to see CoS, I think?

Yeah, for the third time. *grin*

At least you'll be able to enjoy some Harry/Draco love subtext *cringes* even though Draco is really creepy and Ron is way cute! Pick Ron, Harry! Ron! The redhead! Over there!

Don't listen to her Harry! Draco's The One! He's not evil...well, not much...he's just misunderstood! You should have SEEN the way he looked at you in Flourish and Blotts.


P.S. to Draco: Ron. Kill. Crush the stupid little git.

Ack!

[haleth.livejournal.com]

*cuddles Ron protectively*

*hisses at eeevvviiilll Slytherins*
No, wait... you like hissing, don't you?
*growls instead*

I'll take care of you, Ronnie-dear, since they *glares at evil wizards* don't want you.

*L*

[poopsmoothie.livejournal.com]

I'd tell you not to fret, but it wouldn't do any good, that sort of thing never does. You'll just have to live through it and realize towards the end that it wasn't nearly as bad as you'd feared. :)

*I* don't find you annoying.

[aerindipity.livejournal.com]

Friends do suck, that is undeniable. Not people, I like people. I just hate having to relate to people. No good.

[unintentional.livejournal.com]

THERE'S A REASON I'M A LONER! THERE'S A REASON I HAVE NO CLOSE FRIENDS!

Ohh, me too.

[emptygirl.livejournal.com]

I must say I loved reading this post. Hopefully you'll be wrong and your predictions will not be true. I think siegeengine has really great points and advice.
I can't wait to hear about how it goes!!! Good Luck!!!