Bisexuality
May. 11th, 2002 10:36 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beandelphikiSo one of my friends (friends-only journal) recently mentioned something like he might be bi...
My circle of straight trans friends rapidly diminish-th, while the number of gay/bi/fill-in-the-blank trans guys I know ever expand-th...
Why?!? Sex with guys, bleck.
I've been reading some books about the science put into discovering the cause of homosexuality, and nearly all the basic findings of prevalence found by the Kinsey report have repeatedly been proven to be true. One thing Kinsey found was that very few women are totally gay or straight. Most women are, to some degree, bisexual.
So the law of averages tells me that I probably am not straight, as I would technically fall into the category of "lesbian female" - and while there aren't that many totally straight women, it's almost impossible to find a totally gay woman.
I have gone round an' round an' round on this one, tho, and I have not yet - in all examinations of my history - been able to completely convince myself of any personal degree of bisexuality.
What can I imagine with a guy? Well, a great deal of friendship, a very physically affectionate friendship, love - if you believe Starsky & Hutch were straight, I not only can imagine that with a guy, I WANT to find it.
But it seems falling IN love with a guy would be a stretch, and as for SEX with a guy...bleck, bleck, bleck.
*runs around "blecking" to himself*
Of course, I may continue to just be steadfastly repressed. I like the ID straight, and don't particularly want to relinquish it. It is solid, un-fluid (God, I get tired of hearing about "fluidity"), and on THAT note, it's surprisingly...subversive. That's not one I saw coming, mind you. But it's amazing, that I stick out no matter where I am. In a mainly non-trans world, I am trans. In a mainly queer trans community, I am straight...it's appropriately twisted.
One thing I keep thinking - if I wanted to find out for sure that I find naked boys icky, then the logical solution would be to go find a guy to sleep with. But I refuse to do that as a girl, and it seems CRAZY to find a guy who would be willing to sleep with a trannie boy - JUST for the sole purpose of proving to myself I don't like it.
So at this point I'm going to make a wild guess, and say it's not gonna happen.
Whoo. *is tired*
I'm using the "horny" mood icon, 'cuz I wanted to see it, and b/c I AM, but that is unrelated to this entry, which I know is unusual for me...heh, isn't that icon cute?
My circle of straight trans friends rapidly diminish-th, while the number of gay/bi/fill-in-the-blank trans guys I know ever expand-th...
Why?!? Sex with guys, bleck.
I've been reading some books about the science put into discovering the cause of homosexuality, and nearly all the basic findings of prevalence found by the Kinsey report have repeatedly been proven to be true. One thing Kinsey found was that very few women are totally gay or straight. Most women are, to some degree, bisexual.
So the law of averages tells me that I probably am not straight, as I would technically fall into the category of "lesbian female" - and while there aren't that many totally straight women, it's almost impossible to find a totally gay woman.
I have gone round an' round an' round on this one, tho, and I have not yet - in all examinations of my history - been able to completely convince myself of any personal degree of bisexuality.
What can I imagine with a guy? Well, a great deal of friendship, a very physically affectionate friendship, love - if you believe Starsky & Hutch were straight, I not only can imagine that with a guy, I WANT to find it.
But it seems falling IN love with a guy would be a stretch, and as for SEX with a guy...bleck, bleck, bleck.
*runs around "blecking" to himself*
Of course, I may continue to just be steadfastly repressed. I like the ID straight, and don't particularly want to relinquish it. It is solid, un-fluid (God, I get tired of hearing about "fluidity"), and on THAT note, it's surprisingly...subversive. That's not one I saw coming, mind you. But it's amazing, that I stick out no matter where I am. In a mainly non-trans world, I am trans. In a mainly queer trans community, I am straight...it's appropriately twisted.
One thing I keep thinking - if I wanted to find out for sure that I find naked boys icky, then the logical solution would be to go find a guy to sleep with. But I refuse to do that as a girl, and it seems CRAZY to find a guy who would be willing to sleep with a trannie boy - JUST for the sole purpose of proving to myself I don't like it.
So at this point I'm going to make a wild guess, and say it's not gonna happen.
Whoo. *is tired*
I'm using the "horny" mood icon, 'cuz I wanted to see it, and b/c I AM, but that is unrelated to this entry, which I know is unusual for me...heh, isn't that icon cute?
