House finale two-parter reaction

[beandelphiki]

Vaguely/very generally spoilerish:



...Oh god, House.

I will say this. I didn't manage to write anything down when it aired, but I was completely over-the-moon in love with "House's Head." It's the best episode of House, M.D. ever, in my eyes. It gave me everything I could have ever wanted in a House ep: that is to say, the inside of House's head while he battles with a puzzle. This tops, "No Reason," and all its attempts to crack House open; to me, "House's Head," got far, far closer to the essence of who House is with half the effort. To how the puzzles are what he has, because this episode got so close to how alien and alone it is up there.


So now I've just watched "Wilson's Heart." I actually missed it airing because I was feeling under the weather Monday, and I've had to download. Well, in retrospect I think that's a good thing...because I don't think I would have wanted to watch this out in the living room with anyone else awake or around.

I did genuinely feel for Wilson and Amber...especially Amber. God, I really loved her in the last minutes.

But oh, House. My heart broke wide open when Wilson nodded his head. If your only real friend and the most important person in your life can ASK that of you, how could you possibly say no? Not because they're so important, but because if you aren't that important to THEM, then what difference does it really make? Why not take the risk given that it doesn't matter what the outcome is? Why bother protecting yourself when you're not very important to anybody...anybody at all?


You can't get what you want when you don't deserve it.



I just want to go curl up and die so it stops hurting.

Comments

[hry2007.livejournal.com]

This is copied from my most recent addition to that horrendous house_wilson post that makes me want to bash my head against the wall because of all the Wilson apologists

In other words, I totally agree

http://community.livejournal.com/house_wilson/2394596.html?thread=31309796#t31542500

Wilson risked House's life, and more importantly, House's mind. On the possibility that a) House would remember the key to the puzzle, and b) said key would be able to save her. B was a long shot, not only because of how it turned out, but because the accident made it such that even if they had a cure there's a good chance she would've died.

Amber was a plot device to learn more about how Wilson behaves in relationships. An amusing, hopeful plot device, but a plot device none the less. That is the purpose of guest stars and story arcs. So no, it's not about a dying woman. Amber was about Wilson, Wilson (and everyone on the show) is about House. Because the show is about House. And even in real life, death isn't about the one dying near as much as those they leave behind.

We learned that during the initial rush of new love, of hope and potential, that time when Wilson believes This Time It Will Be Different And I Will Really Connect With This Woman And Have The American Dream, he is willing to sacrifice House life on the offset chance that he's really changed. Finding this out about Wilson shows us a fair bit of why House sabotages Wilson's romantic relationships and has so little self-worth.

Seeing as how Shore's mantra about the show is that people don't change, I don't regard Wilson finding Ms. Right as a safe bet. Boo hoo, some of us are cynics. That doesn't mean we're wrong. Wilson knows his own track record, and a 40-something man with a career in medicine should have enough self-awareness to see the significance of House in his life, even when he is getting some.

In short, Wilson put Amber above House. I think that's fucked up. Not because I want Wilson miserable. Not because I think House and Wilson need to be together romantically for the show to work. I think it's fucked up because I value long-term relationships over the fleeting rush of new love. 20 year friendships ought to be more important that an endless string of serial short-term monogamous relationships. To Wilson it's not. We should be examining why, not excusing his behavior.

[beandelphiki.livejournal.com]

I gotta say, I read your posts about the finale a few hours ago, and they helped a lot to read. I don't want to cause any confusion with my [particularly emotional] reactions here or elsewhere in the future, so I will say here that you are right. It's not House's fault. He SHOULD have called for a ride; that's what you do. He didn't make Amber get on the bus (although it's rough to know that if he'd gone in her car without a fuss, it wouldn't have happened). Still, that doesn't make it his fault.

But I'm completely inside House's head today, so it's just killing me that Wilson was willing to sacrifice him, and I have a lot of, If only you hadn't's running through my brain. In case I say anything that makes it seem as though I think House should be blamed for Amber's death though, I don't.


Wilson...people are saying that we don't know what Wilson's reaction to House will be, or if he's actually angry. I think we DID get an indication that Wilson might blame House, as he asked Amber why she wasn't angry. Which to me says that he asked that because HE is angry. Whether he's mad at House or just the universe in general is the really unclear part.

I really want to know what's going through Wilson's head. And I don't mean I want to read fanfic about it (I don't think I've ever been less interested in Housefic than I am at the moment; the idea that a bunch of people are going to be angling this into hurt/comfort and smutfic makes me feel a little ill right now, because it's too raw), I mean I want to know what the creators will have to say about it.

Blah, worst and best season finale ever. I don't want to spend all summer wondering if Wilson really hates House.

[hry2007.livejournal.com]

I... did not react well to the ep. I'm able to think about it now and gently sent my torch and pitchfork aside, but yeah.

The worst part is that it feels like a lot of people don't get why I'm pissed at Wilson. Like I'm being insensitive about Amber's death by being hurt for House. Yeah, I know, I'm a little too emotionally invested in being right, but still.