Drama as an addiction?

[beandelphiki]

So I woke up to a (locked) post in queer_rage this morning over this tripe over in ftm. I keep checking it to see if anyone commenting late has decided to...(okay, the blackfolk parlance here would be "shuffle," but that's not appropriate for me to use, so I'll just say) KISS ASS.

Hasn't happened yet. I'm almost disappointed - am I a drama-seeker, or what?

I am not normally (at least in the last year or so) interested in finding lj-drama to be involved in. I have a nasty temper, but I've also spent many months working on learning to pick battles that matter, and stay out of things guaranteed to drain my emotional energy.

Lately, I've been looking for trouble, I think. And that bothers me. It's not, and never was, healthy.

I think maybe I am (in ADD parlance this time!) stimulation-seeking. I know I did it when I was in a relationship with siegeengine, starting arguments to maintain my focus, but what good did that do? Sure, I was paying attention to the conversation(!) but it upset him and caused - at least to some extent - unnecessary strife. I think it's good to "work stuff out," but I don't know that it's at all helpful to go looking to work out stuff that hasn't really even come up yet.

This, I think, is similar. A few months ago, a fight breaking out on my f-list would have set my stomach churning, now I'm looking for one. This isn't cool.

And I just realized - my (really rather sudden) obsession with lj-drama matches up almost EXACTLY with my quitting caffeine two Thursdays ago so I didn't mess with the Ritalin. Which...really isn't doing much except keeping me alert.


Hmmmm.


It's always one thing or another! Does this ever end?

Comments

I don't know...

[i-dreamed-i-was.livejournal.com]

But what does it say about me that I ran over to check out that post? LOL... *smh*

Re: I don't know...

[beandelphiki.livejournal.com]

Haha! It's a mess, innit?

Actually, I kind of hope it doesn't get deleted or anything. I'd like to be able to link to it like, "Want to be an ally to the trans community? DON'T do this!"

Right?

[i-dreamed-i-was.livejournal.com]

"Now, I know what you're all thinking! How can a white woman write from a black perspective? Well, I'll tell you: because as long as I research it and am empathetic, it'll be accurate! So there!"

Bah. You know I'm not about conflating oppressions, but really. Remember Nasdijj? *smh*

Re: Right?

[beandelphiki.livejournal.com]

Naw, but in a really basic/baseline kind of way, they are similar, yes? Similar ideas exist in communities like...the oppressive group doesn't try to speak for the oppressed, that's privileged. Yeah.

Remember Nasdijj? *smh*

No! Who? *super curious*

Oh...

[i-dreamed-i-was.livejournal.com]

This:

http://community.livejournal.com/ap_racism/59287.html

Totally disgusting.

By the way...

[i-dreamed-i-was.livejournal.com]

"I'm an ally because I SAY I'm an ally! You have to believe me! Nay-- even love me! Coddle me! Kiss my boo-boos!

Wait, is this ftm or feminist?"

Re: By the way...

[beandelphiki.livejournal.com]

"And don't say I'm not! I've heard it all before, and those were the BAD feminists FtMs!"

You know what I love? On her site, there's some "review" page, and it first lists tons of glowing reviews, and then at the bottom there's a bad review from the mod of some trans community that basically says, "This is disrespectful." And the name of whatever community this is is left off, to "protect" them.

What? First of all, I have no doubts this trans community would stand behind the message, since the mod commented that many found it offensive. Second, how condescending is that?! "I'm going to decide for you what sort of message you should be embarrassed to have left for my book." And best of all, it's beside the only other bad review...one from a woman who calls FtMs "freaks."

Judging by the response in ftm, I somehow doubt those are the only bad reviews she's gotten.

Re: I don't know...

[danielray.livejournal.com]

wait, you mean don't write a bad self-published lesbian romance novel with an FTM main character and then make an lj account to promote it? *that's* not hard to avoid!

it is kind of funny to keep track of when i am spoiling for a fight and when i am not. i keep refreshing that page to see what people have to say. *and* it's my first day back at work from a week+ vacation...

Re: I don't know...

[beandelphiki.livejournal.com]

wait, you mean don't write a bad self-published lesbian romance novel with an FTM main character and then make an lj account to promote it? *that's* not hard to avoid!

But she was divinely inspired or something, so it was basically unavoidable, but that also makes it all okay.

i keep refreshing that page to see what people have to say. *and* it's my first day back at work from a week+ vacation...

So basically, you're not getting anything done? Ayup, I'm doing the same thing. (I was out sick, have a fantastic amount to catch up on.)