I'm more than two-thirds water
Aug. 22nd, 2003 01:45 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
beandelphikiI'm so tired all the time. I think summer apathy has fully set in. Now I'm so tired I don't even want to laze around.
These last couple of weeks, I've been agitating for school to start again. I want to go back, plunge into some brainy work, feel my mind stretch again. And it would also help to kick this addiction I seem to have developed to dazed and purpose-less 'net surfing.
Well, I've changed my mind. I don't want to go back. Why? Well, I registered today, and things are not looking up.
I only got my name changed on the 12th. They told me it would take 4-6 weeks to deliver the paperwork. Well, guess what? The school won't register me under my new legal name without the paperwork. Even the receipt is not good enough.
I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do.
I'm going to have 3 new teachers. Can I dare to hope that I'll get a chance to talk to all three of them before class starts? And that they'll be willing to call me by the right name? And that they'll get the clue about pronouns?
If I could have just gone by "Daniel" on the attendance list, I doubt it would be questioned, but if they have to see my birth name FIRST...people can be so fucking stupid. Also, another problem - until I get the paper work, I can't get a student ID card. That's going to be a problem.
The woman who was entering me into the system asked me, "Well, you have to go by your old name until you can bring the paperwork to us. Is that okay?"
WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK? NO, IT IS NOT 'OKAY'!"
She told me that I could just correct my teachers when they called my name. I just looked at her. Yeah thanks, dumbfuck, but by then, it's TOO LATE, isn't it?
*sigh* I am so tired of this crap. And the thing is, we could have completely avoided this hassle if we'd gone and changed my name in July. Hell, I've been bugging my mother to help me do it since September. I wanted to do it before I even got my first ID card. I guess what I really should have done is asked her what I would need, and then walked or biked to a registry and done it myself. But I didn't...
When we got in line for our receipt, I pointed all this out. She said in a chipper tone, "Yes, I suppose we should have done that earlier. Ooops, sorry!" She has no clue how important this is, and she's never going to. I want to hate her for this, but I'm too sad right now to be angry.
It's thanks to delays like this that I haven't seen Dr. Miles in MONTHS. Mom keeps saying that we can't make another appointment because we can't pay for it and we need the insurance. Well, guess what? The only person who will help us is in one day a week, and we have to work out the legal issues by email because we can't meet them in person. It's dad's insurance - only he can meet them in person, apparently.
And of course, mom isn't on speaking terms with dad.
I was supposed to be on T a month ago.
I hate my life.
These last couple of weeks, I've been agitating for school to start again. I want to go back, plunge into some brainy work, feel my mind stretch again. And it would also help to kick this addiction I seem to have developed to dazed and purpose-less 'net surfing.
Well, I've changed my mind. I don't want to go back. Why? Well, I registered today, and things are not looking up.
I only got my name changed on the 12th. They told me it would take 4-6 weeks to deliver the paperwork. Well, guess what? The school won't register me under my new legal name without the paperwork. Even the receipt is not good enough.
I don't know what to do. I don't know what to do.
I'm going to have 3 new teachers. Can I dare to hope that I'll get a chance to talk to all three of them before class starts? And that they'll be willing to call me by the right name? And that they'll get the clue about pronouns?
If I could have just gone by "Daniel" on the attendance list, I doubt it would be questioned, but if they have to see my birth name FIRST...people can be so fucking stupid. Also, another problem - until I get the paper work, I can't get a student ID card. That's going to be a problem.
The woman who was entering me into the system asked me, "Well, you have to go by your old name until you can bring the paperwork to us. Is that okay?"
WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU THINK? NO, IT IS NOT 'OKAY'!"
She told me that I could just correct my teachers when they called my name. I just looked at her. Yeah thanks, dumbfuck, but by then, it's TOO LATE, isn't it?
*sigh* I am so tired of this crap. And the thing is, we could have completely avoided this hassle if we'd gone and changed my name in July. Hell, I've been bugging my mother to help me do it since September. I wanted to do it before I even got my first ID card. I guess what I really should have done is asked her what I would need, and then walked or biked to a registry and done it myself. But I didn't...
When we got in line for our receipt, I pointed all this out. She said in a chipper tone, "Yes, I suppose we should have done that earlier. Ooops, sorry!" She has no clue how important this is, and she's never going to. I want to hate her for this, but I'm too sad right now to be angry.
It's thanks to delays like this that I haven't seen Dr. Miles in MONTHS. Mom keeps saying that we can't make another appointment because we can't pay for it and we need the insurance. Well, guess what? The only person who will help us is in one day a week, and we have to work out the legal issues by email because we can't meet them in person. It's dad's insurance - only he can meet them in person, apparently.
And of course, mom isn't on speaking terms with dad.
I was supposed to be on T a month ago.
I hate my life.
