I want to say something helpful or comforting, but I'll admit I don't know what to say. I've never cut...just pierced myself in weird places before (such as my arm, or hand web and such..just to feel the pain and ensure myself that I was in control still, if that makes any sense. I'm not sure it's the same thing you described. What you posted makes me sad...I guess I've just come to envision you as so strong willed and insightful and wise, and to think that things like this affect you...well I've already said it, makes me sad. I don't mean anything bad whatsoever with that, I don't know, dammit, it's so hard to explain. None of this seemed to come out right. That was just pure incompetence on the social services part!! >:( Why in the hell would a person seek help for something of that particular nature if it wasn't really happening?? Man. The system is so useless it seems to me anymore. I'm sorry you had to go through all that shit. Some things that happen in this world...some of these things honestly make me question my faith at times. I'm not going to say "I hope you feel better soon" right now, I feel like that's bullshit. It sounds too fake or something. I do hope however, you can get these episodes under control, if only somewhat, and not do any major damage. *hugs*. :(
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Date: 2002-11-11 01:44 am (UTC)I've never cut...just pierced myself in weird places before (such as my arm, or hand web and such..just to feel the pain and ensure myself that I was in control still, if that makes any sense. I'm not sure it's the same thing you described.
What you posted makes me sad...I guess I've just come to envision you as so strong willed and insightful and wise, and to think that things like this affect you...well I've already said it, makes me sad. I don't mean anything bad whatsoever with that, I don't know, dammit, it's so hard to explain. None of this seemed to come out right.
That was just pure incompetence on the social services part!! >:( Why in the hell would a person seek help for something of that particular nature if it wasn't really happening?? Man. The system is so useless it seems to me anymore. I'm sorry you had to go through all that shit. Some things that happen in this world...some of these things honestly make me question my faith at times. I'm not going to say "I hope you feel better soon" right now, I feel like that's bullshit. It sounds too fake or something. I do hope however, you can get these episodes under control, if only somewhat, and not do any major damage.
*hugs*. :(