beandelphiki: Animated icon of the TARDIS from the British television show, "Doctor Who." (Em - digitalpixie (creator))
beandelphiki ([personal profile] beandelphiki) wrote2002-07-09 08:53 pm

I suck...again

This is irritating...

I finally have an idea for something I could write about, but I don't want to do it yet.

See, I thought I'd share with everyone my family's FASCINATING way of "typing" Talents in our kids. Observe...my sister, the Artist. And me, the Writer.

It's really going to be an entry that breaks new ground. *snort*

But I want to put up examples of our drawing/writing to illustrate the points I plan to make. And to do this I need to find a more reliable remote loader than boom-frickin-speed. So I suppose I need to bug my dad to help me figure out the email web domain thing.

And I also need to find some (one?) of the very, very few drawings I've ever made. Now that could be a challenge, all right.

And I'll also announce tonight that I am in one of my very best, "I suck, I'm ugly, I'm stupid, and everyone hates me," funks.

I'm almost glad I can legitimately lay claim to an abusive background to explain that, because I think this is my shield. I don't want to have self-worth, because then I have to face the world raw and try to live, and that's much scarier than "I suck," which I've had in my head practically since I was born. "I suck," is something I'm very used to, comfortable...comforting, in a way.

More on THAT when I don't have a bloody headache.

[identity profile] macai.livejournal.com 2002-07-09 08:34 pm (UTC)(link)
I know how you feel...

[identity profile] astres.livejournal.com 2002-07-09 09:10 pm (UTC)(link)
There are times when I don't want to write...I just start, however and I get into that mood.

Liquid2k.com is pretty good webspace....I think. It has no banners, something I look for in wedhosts.

As for the rest, I can relate.

[identity profile] ex-indistinc653.livejournal.com 2002-07-10 02:33 pm (UTC)(link)
i know how the "i suck" mood goes, blah! i'm adding you to my friends list, btw. :)

[identity profile] beandelphiki.livejournal.com 2002-07-10 03:08 pm (UTC)(link)
Yeah, I just saw that and added you. :)

Love the icon.